At my parents’
cottage a book caught my son’s eye and mine as well. Into the Wild was published in 1996 and is the true story
of an American young adult who turned his back on a life of privilege. After attaining his college degree he
changed his name from Chris McCandless to Alexander Supertramp and broke off
all contact with his parents and siblings.
He became a nomad, subsisting on rice and a few other things he could
fit in his backpack. His ultimate dream
was to live off the land in Alaska from April to July 1992, but conceded in two
postcards to friends that his experiment ran the risk of ending in death. In August 1992 his body was found in a
rusting city bus. (A construction company attempting to build a permanent road
in the area had hauled this bus into the Alaskan wilderness thirty years
earlier to serve as living quarters for its crew.)
While this was
obviously a sad story, it was much more than that for me.
As I read this
thoroughly researched account it caused me to reflect about McCandless’ sojourn
and his need for a level of risk in order to find fulfillment. I looked back into my own life to see if
there was anything like this in my own young adult years. It came to me like a bit of a jolt to realize
that after graduating from a Christian college, I also changed my name (using
my middle name) for a year. I attended
teacher’s college at a university in Northern Ontario where I somewhat
deliberately did not know anyone. It
was a test for myself to see who I was and how I would cultivate my faith in
God without any of my traditional supports.
Would I attend church? Where
would I go? What kind of friends would
I choose?
Unlike
McCandless I maintained contact with my family and continue to treasure
them. Yet I needed that year to get out
of the familiar circles and to discover who I was as an independent adult. By God’s grace I passed the test. As my children will be coming to that point
soon enough, these reflections are good preparation for letting them go.
We watched the movie about McCandless; it is interesting, beautiful and sad. I remember feeling very angry about him abandoning his parents and wondering if my parents ever felt similarly when I left Eastern Ontario to live my life in Kitchener. We have the dvd if you ever want to borrow it. The sound track is written (lyrics) and performed by Eddie Vedder and Pearl Jam.
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